Ok now that I shared his schedule, you can see that we don't get much time with him. I don't mind it so much. I've been through a year deployment with a 2 year old and a newborn, I can handle this no problem. It's our kids that suffer the most. Atleast with the deployment Kell was gone all the time. The kids got used to it. Plus they were young enough to not really understand. Now the kids see Kell leaving them every night during the week and every day on the weekends. I think it's harder on them because they feel like he doesn't want to be with them. Don't get me wrong Kell is a wonderful daddy and plays with the kids and loves on them every free second that he gets. He would much rather be at home spending time with us. It breaks his heart to leave the kids every night.
I've rambeled quite a bit so far. But that's the backstory. Now this weekend, Brogan was quite upset. He didn't want his daddy to go to the library Sunday morning. Kell tried playing with him as much as he could before he left. It just wasn't enough. Brogan cried and screamed at him not to leave. He even screamed "I'm sick of you leaving me!" ...ouch that one hurt Kell pretty bad. How does a 5 year old come up with that? It took all he had to go study that day. Brogan cried for his daddy for hours. No matter how much I tried to comfort him, it didn't help. Caitlyn's turn was yesterday. She sat at the dinner table crying and begging Kell not to go to the library. She kept saying over and over "Daddy please don't go, please don't go Daddy".